From:
cjansa99
Date: 2002-01-29 15:04:00 UTC
Subject: My little girl is gone : (
Despite my best efforts Spaz lost the battle with ECE sometime
between 2-6 am I was up trying to feed her till 2:00 am and finally
she and I were both exhausted. I managed to get a few cc down her
so I went to bed with every intention of trying again at 6:00. When
I woke to the alarm and went in to check on her she was gone. My
other little girl had somehow managed to get herself up into the tub
with her and was laying there looking up at me as if to say "Don't
worry mom I was with her so she didn't die alone"
My heart is broken! I have never lost anyone this close to me
before. I really love my babies and I feel so guilty. We were at
the vet 3 times yesterday. I should have forced him to keep her and
put her on an IV but he didn't want to stress her any further he
said. Now she's gone and I feel like I failed her.
Thank you all for you kind words of support and encouragement. I
will be using all your advice to get my little Farrah through this
terrible disease. Its so hard for me being a single working mom but
if I have to fore-go sleep for a week to help her I'm fully prepared
to do it.
Thanks again...
I rememberance of Spaz (aka The Spazmanian Devil)
Cindy