From:
The Ferret Aid Society
Date: 2002-06-28 01:17:00 UTC
Subject: Harley, my heart
my heart feels like it was ripped from my chest, but those of you who have
lost ferrets know how that feels. Words can't describe the emptiness and
ache I feel in my stomach. I felt so empty the night he died, I sat alone
in my room with a box of woven wheat crackers and just kept eating and
eating, hoping that empty feeling would go away. It didn't.
I knew it would hurt when I lost Harley. I've lost ferrets so many times
before, including my own. Somehow, Harley had touched me in ways that no
ferret ever has and I know it will take much longer for me to get over his
loss.
Harley was a little bugger. So many times I'd hear myself saying "HARLEY!
You little bugger! Look what you did to mommie's (plants, glasses, dishes,
sea monkeys, movies, purse etc. etc.)" Bugger got shortened to Bug and so
Harley got the nik-name "Bug".
Harley battled Actinomyces, E.coli, Pseudomonas, C. Perfringens, Adrenal
Disease and many, many other ailments throughout his life. He was a spirited
fighter and a happy go lucky ferret right to the end of his life. Many of
you met him and could never tell he was a sick boy. He never let on to
anyone just how sick he was, even in the end. I'll love him forever.
Thank you all for the cards, e-mails and flowers. I know many of you loved
Harley and so many of you have shared your outpouring of grief over the loss
of Harls. It means a lot to me to know he was loved and honored by so many
of you. I will respond to all of you, in time. Right now, I need to figure
out how to get some sleep and I need some alone time to grieve the loss of
my best friend.
Harley "Bug", my heart, my soul, my angel and devil wrapped all in one, you
have taken my soul with you over the Bridge and the emptiness will never go
away until one day i am reunited with you. I always looked at you like a
beloved immortal. Nothing ever kept you down and you seemed like you would
live forever. Tonight I grieve for you, sitting by your cage and reading the
cards and smelling the flowers. Tonight, you sleep with the angels.
I'll miss telling you to leave grandma alone cuz she has no more treats and
I'll miss the trouble you always seemed to get yourself into. i'll miss
spending time with you at the pet shows and educational days and although it
was hard, i'll miss the long drives with you to Guelph and spending the days
there with you. I would have driven to the ends of the earth for you my
little "Bug". I'm so sorry Harley, that I wasn't there for you in the end,
when you took your very last breath. I didn't know you'd be leaving so soon.
Thank you for coming into my life and sharing your ups and downs with me.
You enriched my entire existence with every passing day. I am grateful for
every day I spent with you and feel so blessed that you were a part of my
life. You were truly MY hero.
You taught me to be care free and believe in the unbelievable, you taught me
that miracles do happen when i had no faith, you taught me to fight when i
felt i couldn't go on, you taught me to be strong when I was so weak, you
taught me how to lift my own spirits when i was down, you taught me the true
meaning of friendship when i didn't know, you taught me how to express my
feelings when i was clamed up, but most importantly, you taught me that love
is unconditional. You taught me that love freely given, never dies, love
lives forever. And so shall you, in my heart, thoughts and prayers. Rest in
peace, my immortal beloved. i'll see you soon enough. i love you.
Randy Melanie Belair
President
The Ferret Aid Society
"For The Love of Our Fuzzy Friends"
http://www.ferretaid.org